i promise at some point i will remember to use my tumblr to post things other than my umineko photoshops
still on my ‘i will post all my umineko photoshop and such work for my livetweet threads over here too’
again, super appreciative of your responses and I'm sorry if I'm coming off weird telling all this to some 'Random Guy on the Internet', but for as long as I've followed you and watched your stuff it really does feel like you're one of the few folks out there that 'gets' the feelings I'm describing at the intersection of all these different things and can articulate it in a way that makes sense.
You've given me shit to think about and explore and I'll do my best with it! You take care yourself!
you don’t come off as weird at all. i mostly bring up the fact that i’m Just Some Guy On The Internet just to keep people from making me out to be some savior type, which has unfortunately been something i’ve run into more than once, IRL and online. i’m a guy who has been through the shit, so i have experience and i speak from it, and that’s it. keep on keeping on, getting better and healthier is slow but very possible.
(also sorry, submitted the last ask before I finished)
Is there ANYWAY at all out of that fear? How do I give myself and my mind permission to just be who I am? I don't really have ADHD, I've played your ADHD twine and the tips you've put in it has been helpful! (the kitchen timer thing in particular, for allowing me to get shit done). But at this point I feel as though my issue runs deeper than that.
I feel trapped in my own head. I can't ever seem to just relax and stop being anxious about how I present myself to the world. Quitting from social media entirely isn't all that appealing to me, as some friends have suggested, and it doesn't seem particularly fair to me. Everyone else gets to express themselves and put things out into the world. Why should I have shut my presence out?
anon, a lot of what you’re asking is like… this hits a level outside of what i can help with as Some Dude On The Internet. this is legitimate stuff of “if you have/can afford a therapist, get one”. and i mention the cost cuz i know full well often we can’t actually afford that and we’re stuck trying to work this shit out on our own.
i will say a couple of things, though:
It's good to see you on here! I've always wanted to ask you as a long-time follower, first-time caller just how you deal with Twitter and all the dumb bullshit that goes with it? Specifically not caring about what people say about you, follower count, amount of positive reactions to your posts, etc.
It feels like Twitter has legitimately affected my mental health because all I ever get exposed to on there is CONSTANT negativity. Even from folks I generally tolerate. I would love to just stop using it, but everytime I try it feels like I'm missing out on a lot. Plus it's where most of my friends are.
How do you shut out the voices in your head that make that website a goddamn nightmare?
part of it is just curation of who you’re following, actively muting certain terms and phrases that might make things bad for you in your head, having a locked account for venting shit (this is one i think is crucial because sometimes you still want to post just to get bad energy out of you but you need a space where it won’t be seen by EVERYBODY - maybe just a few people, or maybe even just yourself, tho in the latter i’d recommend getting a regular ass journal for that purpose), all that sort of regular social media stuff but part of it is for me, personally… i just had a break a long time ago with wanting to be The Funny Guy.
because i’m me, this is gonna get long. bear with me.
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